One Day

It has been a productive day to me. It’s not in my plan but I woke up 6am and suddenly decided to take a walk and run (alternate hahahaha). After having breakfast I went straight to my computer and of course – WORK. An hour after lunch, I met my friend Laine because I promise her to coach her “how to park” J and well I can proudly say that it was a success. Then pick up my sister and did some groceries.

I did some de-cluttering in my room (including file sorting) because it will be renovated in 3 weeks’ time. One of the thing I saw is my journal which contains my letter to my future boyfriend..it may sound funny and weird but I really did it and will continue doing it. As soon as I’m done cleaning the room, I hit the shower, put on my night regimen and go back to my computer.

I even laugh at myself upon reading my own letter… and now, I will share what was written almost a year ago.

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August 20, 2012

Dear Future Boyfriend (FBF)
I just turned 30 few days ago and still single? Why?? Next question please hahaha!! (I think I was having a dual personality back then that I'm doing some monologue). I just cam from another "heartbreak". We were getting along for 2 months then in just a blink on an eye, he decided to hold back because he thinks he is not good for me.

Honestly, I am hurting now because I have fallen for him already. I tried to convince him that he is more than enough but I guess that's why I am not in the Sales department because it's not my cup of tea.

My friends were amazed how I manage to still thinks of him despite my super busy schedule but in as much as I wanted not to, I couldn't help it.

I decided to start this journal and will show to you ONE DAY.

Sorry for the hand writing though :).

Looking forward of meeting you,
Donna

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August 27, 2012

Dear FBF,

I am not sure if this thing will work or if this can possibly help me ease the pain of not having a significant other.

Today, I received a very inspiring words from a very dear friend Carmela, "be happy in your hearts" and I will try to be.

I promise myself that I will try to be happy with what I have. If God wanted me to stay single then I will learn how to accept it because I know that this is what He wanted for me.

But it does not mean I will stop waiting for you :).

See you around,
Donna

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Oh yessss I am back. I missed writing.





 

Nueve

It’s been a while, and I missed this. I miss writing. I have been planning to go back and write something really worth reading hahahaha I mean not only about all the not so good things happened to me but about the trips I have had which I could share specially to first timers (hope I will make a good one) or about anything under the sun. I was supposed to do this a little late because I need to work on some stuff first but since my VPN connection is conniving with me (loosing connection - a perfect excuse), so here goes……….

Last night was a blast. We had our 9^th reunion with college classmates and turned out to be good friends and it was so much fun. Though, only few attended (me, Hercie Joy, Laine, Leslie, May Ann, Mark June, Dennis, Bernard, Cris and Sir Wally) but of course the show must go on J.

 

We are so thrilled upon seeing Sir Wally after forever. As always, we love how he cracked his jokes especially now that we are all adults and not his students anymore (hmmmmm). Of course, May Ann is late as always at least she’s consistent :). It's funny how every year we talked about our college days but never get tired of it and laugh as if it was the first we heard the stories. I really wish others try to attend too. This gathering is not about bragging how far one has achieved in life, the network he/she earned, nor talked about each personal lives but this is about seeing each other once a year, share about his/her family, the jobs/business/others each are engaged.

The highlight of the event, was when Dennis went up the stage and sang with the band. Last year, he was supposed to sing with that same band too but we run out of time..so last night was Dennis' time to shine. He's drunk and that is where he got his confidence, it was really a lot of fun.

We are trying to parted ways at 12mn but Dennis keeps on asking us to stay longer. He is like a kid "bakit nung si Edna hanggang umaga inabot tayo?" Finally at 12:30, the girls have managed to leave and left the guys. The boys had coffee in order to make Dennis come back to his senses because he still need to drive himself home.

See you next year again CS :)

P.S. sorry guys I couldn't load pictures due to limited connection

Shayne

Good morning Girl :) I am up early again but at least not as early like yesterday. THANK YOU. I mean every single letter of it and you know why. The past couple of weeks is like a roller coaster ride, today we are UP tomorrow DOWN. So I decided to take off the ride.

I must be God's favorite nowadays, that whenever He took somebody away He replaced it with a person whom I know will be more than enough. It may sound odd but the person who replaced the one that gotten away is actually their friend (ummmmmm???). But I am glad for they know the X person so I dont need to explain a lot and knows how they will comfort me.

I am so looking forward of meeting you in person and talk about a lot of things. Not only him of course..like make up, trips we had have and dream of..type of X we had??? Hahahaha. And other things.

Oh and by the way, just want to share. Last night, I promise myself to be better than I was yesterday and will start it now.

So glad to meet you :)

Libra

Im back!!! Ironic as it may sound but what brought me back here is a feeling I wish never existed :( "It's not you it"s me" line is getting into me. I heard this twice already and made me realize that this is the most humane way of getting rid off me.

But WHY?? What did I do wrong this time? Yes I admit, Im talkative, nagger, whinny and bossy. Is it showing what I truly feels wrong? All I want is to love and be loved in return but it seems like it is impossible. As soon as they get to know me they turn their back and ran away like they were being chase by a zombie.

People around me knows how gullible I am, how immediately I fall for someone without a second thought. Im just puzzled what they see in me that they will come after me and then suddenly change their mind.

XTROLOGY said : "Dont worry about a Libra's feeling, they are more worried about yours."

Is this the reason why we ended up like this? That you worry too much about me so you just made a decision without even asking my opinion?

There are more questions I have in mind which Im not sure if I could get an answer. I so wanted to STAY, but I know my existence makes you feel odd - so i will STAY AWAY.

Carmela

It's been awhile, the past 6 months is definitely a "whew" but Im so PROUD of who I am now. People come and go in our life, and I believe that God will replace what was taken away, true to it I met a new friend. She came in tip toe, my guardian angel in human form :). She rescued me when I was too engross drowning myself in my own made "well". What I appreciate most is that she's in a painful situation also then and yet she still manage to help me rise, Im really thankful to God for sending you Carmela.

I dont have to use any adjective word to describe you, because the word adjectives itself is relatively Carmela. Thank you x 1 million :) ahahahahaha for everything. Also, thanks for introducing me to the man who loves us unconditionally - God, the couple John & Stasi Eldredge, our idol Nikita and to myself (you know what I mean).

I miss you terribly and I hope we'll catch up soon, stay in love and happy and may God be with you always.

^_6

Facebook vs SQL

I have been telling myself for 2 months now that it's okay, you're still in the "honeymoon" stage. It doesn't mean you're futile, they don't want to give loads when you haven't had your tranings. Just last week, I had my SQL (IT people knows this) training, I honestly didn't learn any (im sorry Jon my instructor). But the codes and syntax mix up so I got confused. Anyways, as you have mentioned we could email you for any inquiries.

Im back at the office Friday, was away for more than a week and I miss my 'babies silky and sassa'. Back to reality. I asked my team mate because he has background with SQL but of course as expected I couldn't ask nor learn from him either. Luckily, he has a BOOK yey yey. Which is more useful than the manual given after the training since the codes are versatile (can be use in other database application). So I asked for his permission to bring it home because I need/have to.

Yesterday, as I woke up I told myself, "get up, you need to practice what you have learned remember?". Okay, so I did. I had breakfast first then go to my work place. I prepared chips, H2O, speaker, cellphone and the 3 books (SQL, manual and Access manual). The SQL book seems interesting since it's user friendly (specially for first timers like me). But OMG, I'm so occupied with other things. Take some good time first girl, I opened my social network account, personal email and youtube. I have this favorite site, RedMango. They held weddings (love this site). I wish, someday my own wedding will be posted in their site. Then chat chat chat chat.

And now, after my breakfast I laundry my bags, shawl and pashmina. Then tsarannnnn...set up my work place again. Been up for 4 hours as indicated in my broadband connection but i haven't done anything except to chat (again!!!!!!!!!!) and youtube. I'll give myself a not deserving break and when back, I PROMISE TO DO MY WORK.

"F I N"

"How can you end something which haven't started yet?"

It's been days..yet it feels like a life time already. Convincing myself that everything is okay and that it will soon be over is like not taking a pill even if the pain is unbearable. Is this really what's best for ME? Of course, my dearest friends said YES YES YES. But why does it feels like it's not, I have had relationships before and at the time I broke up with them it feels perfectly right. Then I heard a cliche, "Follow your heart, it will lead you to your happiness". And so I did, but why am I miserable now? If this is the right thing to do, why am I having sleepless night?

Ecstasy went away so fast I didn't notice it passed by and I was left with Silky, brown bear and memories. I must admit, I miss him terribly. But this is the least I could do for myself because if I keep going, I might get trapped for eternity. Missing him is my biggest challenge now...and I hope..everything will be at their right place in God's time..please make it fast as possible.

You know Im not good at reading one's mind even yours. I'm so clueless of how you truly feels. Confused of why we ended this way when we started right, aren't we? I know you care and honestly I didn't like this either. "Is sharing one self to somebody bad?", course not it will only be bad if the person cannot control herself anymore. You may drive my world crazy but it is my choice. You have a lot going and don't want to be a burden.

We still need to "FIN" the movie.